Against All Odds

wow guys.you won't even believe this. I was just informed by my grandchildrens new case worker that the courts ruled me out as a caregiver because I was mentally unstable and competent, suicidal and a drug abuser.
ok.NOW I've heard everything!
Unbelievable. Of coarse the first thing I did was contact the case worker that has been handling this case since my Grand children were taken. He has handled this case up until a few weeks ago, and it's funny.he has no idea what this new case worker is talking about. I talked to her too, this new case worker..she said I was high on drugs because I couldn't sit still my last visit with my Grand daughter. I created a picnic for her my last visit...if you can even imagine going to see your children in a supervised room.like jail! So I created a picnic. She just turned 3, she was born at my feet.lived in my home from birth...I'm getting time mixed a bit cause she's older than that by a few months...........anyway.sun hats, a blanket to sit on, pizza, fresh strwberries, flowers for the blanket.the whole 9 yards. Created a picnic and a joyful memory I know my baby girl will remember....I have nerve damage in my spine. It is excruciatingly painful for me to sit on a floor and I refuse to take pain meds. so I rock. I can't sit in one position for more than 90 seconds without the pain becoming unbearable.........so I rock. I constantly move to shift the position of my spine..........so now I'm on drugs? wow.that's a bigger leap I would ever jump
Of coarse I'm not taking this sitting down....hahaha
My immediate reaction was anger and defencivness....this just happened an hour ago..
But I'm over that. Anger is such a waste of energy. ALOT of energy totally unproductive directed in always the wrong direction. I'm not even going there.
Guess I do need to work on my phone ediquit tho.hahaha.I'm far from perfect! So human am I given to t
the same reactions as any human being
YES!! even as I speak! Janet, the other grandparent, that I have been working so long and so hard about love with..just called me so 'we' can see my Grandson tomorrow! WooHoo. haven't seen him in 2 weeks and it';s been breaking my little heart
I take EVERYTHINMG as hope....every change is a possibility. I will never give up! no no no no no! Never! Giving up is NOT in my makeup............
I believe in love. Love hopes for ALL things.BELIEVES in ALL things
Love never gives up. I don't really know, if any of you out there are really paying attention to my strugle but listen.even after death will I never.EVER give up!