Black holes in Aura

Hello everyone,

I have a question regarding black holes in our Auras. I understand this usually occurs for those that have used certain psychedelic drugs, I have not done so as an adult, however as a baby I had a rare form of cancer and was given diamorphin and omnipon amoung numerous other drugs and may be still effected.
I was a very loving person as a child but extreemly sensitive to others and as a result totally shut down for many years through fear. Now I'm opening myself up to the light again which is wonderfull - when I'm up I am soooo happy and exited now! However I'm extreemly fed up with feeling like poop most of the time! I take exellent care of myself and don't bother going to the docs cos they don't know how to help (unless you have a broken leg)! So if I have a black hole in my Aura which is having an effect, any suggestions on how to heal myself?
Many thanks you guys, I love you ALL!
xx :) xx