My Awakening... I didn't know I was "finding "myself."

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I have had an experience, and it changed my perspective on life. While I was in deep contemplation about life: I was wondering, "what is the meaning of it all?" I suddenly was no longer one with my body. I have never felt this before. I was suddenly aware that I am not my body. I realized that I go beyond just being my body. I realized that my body was just something I used for transportation or something to express myself to others in this physical realm. While I was realizing this, it seemed like I was looking "through" my eyes... not like I always have done, but differently, like I was detached from my eyes and looking out from behind them. I was not attached to the body; I was just inhabiting it. I was looking at my hands and the room around me; it all seemed to have a new strangeness. It seemed like I was in a suit. I think that this is what it feels like when babies are born. While I was in this state of awareness, my sight was suddenly taken from this realm to another realm. I was looking into a very vast darkness. I cannot say "looking," but rather "being." It went on forever... there was no beginning or no end to it: it just was. The darkness was not dark like we think of darkness; although it was absent of the light that our eyesight can sense. Our five senses that we use on Earth are no longer valid in this realm. The darkness was separated: there seemed to be a sky and an ocean; the ocean was like a liquid darkness. It had no waves or movement to it. It was just as dark as the darkness above it, but both seemed to shine without shining. While I was in this realm (or state of consciousness), I realized that I was this substance. There was no part of it that I wasn't. At the same time, I realized that GOD was this substance, as well. I knew that GOD and I were one, and so was everything else one with GOD. There was nothing separate from GOD here. I knew that I had existed even before I was born into the body. I knew everything... there was nothing I did not know: no need to even ask. Also, there was no concept of sin or evil. This substance was Pure Love/Pure Perfection. I could still identify with the person I was on Earth, so I would say that I kept my individuality in this higher realm. This experience only lasted for about 3 to 10 seconds; although, it seemed to last for a very, very long time. Time did not seem to exist in that realm. It is very hard to describe this experience; it is incomprehensible. I put words to it as best I could. While I was in that state of consciousness, I just felt and knew: those were the only senses I can think I used. These are the notes I wrote about it after it happened: I have realized that I am not my body. The body seems to be only a "vehicle." I realize that I should treat my body in such a way that I would treat a good car. If the spirit inside it wants to continue to get around in the physical realm, I should take care of the body, but no longer identify myself with it. I am more than my body. My body is a physical material which is used to express my spirit. Just like a poem is used to give expression to the thoughts of a poet. If what is in my heart is bad then my actions through the body will be the same. If my spirit desires to be helpful and good then my body will express this, too. The body can do nothing to express itself. When one is sleeping, the body lies waiting for instruction. The only self expression the body has of its own accord is when it has an illness or some other physical issue that it cannot help but express; such as a cold. So, it would seem that day-by-day people show each other the state of their heart; many are full of evil desires and are rotten to the core. Most people identify them self or the "I" with the body: they are not aware that they are much, much more than the "vehicle." People without the truth think they are the "car," but the prophets and other enlightened ones realize that they are just in the "car." After becoming enlightened to these truths, I can view every person, every creature, and the whole of creation as GOD. It was revealed to me that just as GOD and I are one, so is everything and everyone else one together with GOD. Now I know that when I do something to hurt someone else, I am really hurting GOD... whether that person knows it or not. Also, if I treat someone with love and kindness, I really get to show love to GOD (and myself, since we are one)... whether that person knows it or not. I also get to express what is in my heart; always hoping for pure love and goodness to be exposed. Anything that is contrary to Pure Love and Holiness is evil. And if evil is shown to be in me through my actions and desires then it is death and judgment knocking at my heart's door. That would be my sin alone. GOD cannot sin, so it would be counted against me. God cannot absorb evil into itself, but since God is not a man or a women I will personify God as the I Am. So when an evil person dies, his evil energies cannot be absorbed back into oneness with God. GOD desires nothing, because all things are his already. Now that I know the truth, I can stop worrying about the body so much and start taking care of the spirit. I must show GOD's qualities as best I can through the way I live my life. I know that GOD is kind, patient, forgiving, loving, faithful, humble, generous, helpful, and truthful. In order to remain one with God I must possess these qualities, as well. All humans are contrary to this by carnal nature; the flesh that our souls inhabit is full of evil. The physical realm works for the self, whereas the spiritual works for the whole. Now that I know that I am not the body, the next step is to realize that there is no I; just oneness. To die to my senses and ego is what Jesus tried to teach us. But how hard it is to defy the laws of this physical realm! The answers are in the Bible... if I could only figure out how to follow that Holy manual, I could become pure spirit on Earth: This is when death will be overcome.