Looking back

As an empath I don`t think, I could bear to look back. I was told by several mediums, that I had been burned as a witch in France once and had starved and freezed to death in Holland as 14 year old girl with a fluffy dog lying beside me and that was why, I was very weak as a baby and didn`t eat or breathe in this life. My skin is very sensitive to water temperatures and fabrics. I was also told, that I had been a nunn in another life in France, where I had been singing myself out of the loneliness. I did that very much also in this life as a child.It makes sense to me even though I don`t remember anything myself.There is an old medieval Danish song about a nunn, who takes care of a wounded knight and makes flower wreaths for his wedding - that song always makes me cry.
Imagine that there was no time, so that our past lives would be happening according to our present!!??Hmmm, a tricky thought. "Back to the future".Who knows, which way it goes, we could be our own matrix!?I suppose, being conscious is also a form of healing - but I don`t think it is healthy to look back too much. What was it about "turning in to a stone"?Time is healing, what if time is only an illusion, just to get us to become our own masters and find our inner God cells usefully?
Try to ponder for a while and see where it brings you