Words

Unity
Insanity is not for a mild heart. This is what frightens me about the coming age. You can see it happening now but probably cant quite see it yet. The most difficult thing about the change is loss of identity. People are waking up with less to grasp on to and its making them unstable. The two choices are let go or grip tighter. Letting go into what though? You never know until you are there. In the freaky ass ashram I was talking to some freaky ass canadian person telling him this fear and right after I was done he fucking flipped out. Screaming at me and shit, it was fascinating. He lost identity while I was talking about it. That also frightens me. Upon reflection I noticed this consistency in my life and its increasing potency. My ego dissolved in the ashram but I was left with a self image. The way its being removed in layers is providing very useful info, I believe. It began with the ego reacting over this silent voice I could only term as 'my real voice'. Showing me a reactionary stance to the ego is incorrect, it piggybacks on the truth and it takes an awerness of this subtle nature not to get wrapped up in the dissallusionment of the ego. Then though with it gone I was still 'narrating' to myself and reviewing things although they didnt cause the same energetic response. I relized that I was still 'eminating' from a point behind what I dould only term as self image. The self image itself is just an 'inclination to live from perspective' and seems to be a filter we are hooked up to. The step back from that seems to occur naturally, going from being on the same level as information ( making it like combat ) to surrounding it and comprehending the levels of it from a non linear stance. These things are only possible with the removal of judgement and the instalment of unity into perspective, at least that seems to be the case to moi. Instalment of unity meaning seeing all things connected, however you are able to do that. I use the term 'one God'. The words themselves mean squat, you have to build up an energetic comprehension to them by finding what they mean to you and trying to get it as close to what feels right as possible. I then went about applying it to all things, I still am. My experience with it is that everything runs smoother even when not running smoothly. It also helps with the identity issue because your self image seems less needed held up next to your divine image. The other thing that really bugged me about the ashram was the Guru's stance. This new world requires no one person to revolve around, no mystic. People give him their personal power and its sickening to me. Each of us was born with everything we need to become everything we could every want and then some. The entire base of bullshit is placing your identity on things outside yourself, labels become images and we are fractured as divine beings. Gather yourself to yourself. God has no issue with anything ever done in your life or anyone elses. You are a manifestation of God exploring God. God contains everything, so must you. Anything you do not allow to be loved becomes created within you. Allow being the key word. Love is not a doing, it is an allowing. Like a ray of sunlight against your face you have only but to choose to feel it. You love everyone unconditionally. The only real choice you are making is the choice not to be in that space where the truth is made apparent. You must allow all things inside of you to be loved. Through our ego we fear the acceptance of things makes us that thing when it has always been the opposite. Blah, blah, blah

Namaste