Growth

Yesterday morning I had a "growth gift" given to me. Having the day off I had very calm and relaxing morning. Slowly I prepared for my day then went out to run an errand and then to a meeting. As things turn out sometimes I was running late after my errand running. First, I was behind a large, heavy utility truck that was going very slowly. Initially I looked to pass and saw that I could not do so, safely. After a BIG sigh I was able to let go and go w/ the flow. As I stopped at a 4 way stop a semi-tractor truck left, out of turn, and was in front of me. So again, a somewhat smaller sigh and letting go w/ the inner dialog that "there must be a reason for me to be late". A few minutes later the truck turns off and I was behind a small SUV, just a couple of minutes from my destination. Suddenly, w/o warning, a vehicle coming from the other direction turned directly into the car in front of me and they hit head on at about 30-35 mph. I immediately pulled to the side and ran to the site to see if I could offer assistance. One of the drivers was seriously hurt w/ some of the typical fractures and lacerations that come w/ that kind of thing. He was an older gentleman and in terrible pain. I was able to be of some comfort, call 911 and his best friend to relay the news. EMS was there very quickly soon I was on my way.

Here is where the lessons began to flow. A minute or two later, after I had turned off my "crisis switch", a tremendous amount of emotions began to flood me. I feel an old pattern of stuffing the energy begin to happen and I consciously allow myself to feel it. Some of it was from being at the scene of the accident but most of it was DEEP, OLD energy......FEAR. As I reflected I realized I've had many times in my life when I was in very dangerous situations that I went into crisis mode and never allowed myself to feel the fear. It was overwhelming for a bit w/ some remnants lasting all day. I focused on releasing the fear while acknowledging to myself, especially that 'inner child', of how traumatic those situations were.

I also remembered that the last few days that I had been communicating w/ my Higher Self and spirit guides to show me the path. WOW, did they respond. For a brief moment I gave thought to the fact that if I hadn't been slowed from my pace that it could have been me in the wreck but wasn't interested in adding drama to it. It all happens for a reason.