Irrational Fears

It seems like lately I have been drifting away from my spiritual path. I haven't meditated in ages or communicated with my guides on a consistent basis in a long time. Frankly, I have been feeling sort of blah with a low vibration. Another factor is that I was watching 'A Haunting' a television program we have on The Discovery Channel in the US. In the program, there was a house haunted by a non-human entity and they mentioned its name. Now, my imagination is going wild that this entity is out to get me because I know its name. Granted, I know rationally this fear stems from a phobia I developed in childhood of possession and demons after watching 20/20, another American news program, on possession and exorcism. Since then, I can't watch any films or television shows on this subject-matter. If I do, I will have nightmares or convince myself I am being stalked by the entity. The only thing that comforts me during this time is sleeping with the light, radio and television and a crucifix (I was raised Catholic and the image comforts me) next to my bed. Normally, it takes me awhile to shake this fear- I can live with it for a few weeks to a few months on end. It is even worse when I am depressed or stressed out.

Ironically, despite my fear and apathy- I feel more protected then ever. For instance, last night I felt ill and went to bed early. As I fell asleep, I felt myself surrounded by an angelic presence and golden light. I felt my entire apartment fill with white light and everything dark be driven away. This has happened several times in the past few weeks. However, my fear continues to follow me around. I am curious why I have developed such a strong fear of demons and possession because I never had any negative experiences with spirits or the paranormal. The real experiences I have in this area is feeling and 'sort of' communicating with dead relative through emotion'. Also, I can pick up the prescence of ghosts, but I have never seen them or communicated with them (Granted, there was one time in my life which I might have communicated with a ghost telepathically, but I am not certain really happened or was my imagination).

Although I feel protected, I am still hesitant to meditate, sleep without a night light or the television off (which I know is not good anyway). If anyone can offer advice how I can kick this fear- I am open to suggestion. I know I posted question like this a few weeks ago and willing to try to bless my house with sage, have a cleansing bath and know affirmations and prayers do work. I think the scary thing about this fear is a part of me wonders if this is not based upon an irrational fear. What if it is spiritual occurrence? However, my bed has not started shaking, I have no 'unexplained scratches' on my body, and my keys are where they are supposed to be. The entire 'movie' tale-tell signs of haunting or something coming after me hasn't taken place. It seems I can't really think clearly about this except to know there are beings on the other side looking out for me. Hopefully, this will be enough to get back to normal and continue on my path.