Oops!!!!!! send me some balance and Healing Please

Well Brothers and sisters I really messed up this past weekend. I came face to face with the side of me I hate. I did things I was for sure was in the past and would never do again. My spirit and faith in myself is hurt. I feel empty and broken. It seems like I am back where I started before my awakening. I have done some pretty shitty and irresponsible things in the past and that's where i thought this part of me was, in the past. I guess it not only in the past. The fact i am still capable of such damaging behavior now after how far I have come is such a disappointment. I thought I had found what I was looking for by connecting with self but I must still be looking for something and i don't know what. I sure thought I was a lot stronger than I am. I know my answer will come until then send me some healing as I am really unbalanced. I am so thankful for you all.

Love Kim