Thoughts & Experiences - July 7, 2008 (Lessons)

The lessons are becoming so much more apparent, so much more obvious. If for some reason or another I am unable to get the message or lesson trust me, some way or another I figure it out and I mean figure it out! I am talking like an anvil falling on my head, a firecracker under my seat an exploding piece of dynamite kind of way of figuring it out. You would think that these are painful ways of figuring things out but truthfully it feels incredible. What a release, the freedom that comes from getting or understanding the lesson is so gratifying. Sure, not all messages or lessons come to us with such a bang, most are subtle even unnoticeable but even the little ones pack a great punch. At times the message or lesson is right there in front of us and what do we do, we push them aside waiting for something else, something more. We even know the lesson, we talk about it with others but when it comes to our own situations we just ignore them. I am noticing that I am in fact quite good at ignoring the very messages and lessons I like to preach.

I suppose from reading all about explosions and fireworks you must have figured out that I had a wonderful revelation this weekend. It really wasn’t about the actual situation because like I said most lessons we already know we just choose to ignore them. So what in the world am I yapping about? Not too sure to be honest with you I just felt the need to scream out that it is ok that we don’t always get the message right away. It is quite alright that the lesson is not absorbed as quickly as we want, it is perfectly fine! Don’t put added pressure on yourself by thinking that you need to soak up everything right away. Trust me on this it took me some time to understand and truly learn the lesson, ‘the people that surround us are merely a direct reflection of what we want’. I have always talked about this and preached it to others but can honestly say that I had a hard time incorporating this into my life, actually only with a few specific people. Don’t get me wrong this has nothing to with love, for love is the only thing that directs me. This had to do with understanding the lesson fully and not just how it suited me. ‘Stay in the moment, enjoy the moment, become the moment’ and watch how the lesson or message unfolds. Once you stop listening you also stop hearing the music.

This weekend my ears were fully opened and the lesson forced it self to be heard. A family member has been challenging me for some time, ‘pushing the buttons’ as they say and I was taking the bait. I know for a fact that I had set-up the challenge, I wanted to experience the situation. However consciously I resisted and was I unable to realize that this was something I wanted something I desired and needed. Well the music started playing again and I started hearing it, I actually started dancing to it. What a feeling my dear friends, what bliss. The lesson was finally learned or actually realized and I have this person to thank. I thank them for taking on this challenge, the challenge in assisting me in realizing the lesson. What was the lesson or message you ask? The only person that can change who you truly are is yourself! As I embraced my dear friend and whispered into his ear, ‘I love you’, I truly meant it with every ounce of my being. You may not understand all the love but trust me one day I hope to assist you in the lessons you may need to learn. I am entirely grateful for the role you play in my life and I am truly blessed to be a part of you. We are here together and we choose it to be that way, what a gift.

To you my brothers and sisters I ask you to be gentle with yourself and allow yourself the time, don’t rush things. When you feel lost or confused by the message or lesson take the time to step back. If you don’t get it right away understand that you were not ready and that the time will come. Trust me the feeling you get when you do get it, is truly magical.

Namaste, Peace and Love!