A call for healing for this website

I am the last person I thought would be writing this post as it is a request I never thought I would hear myself make. Over the last little bit of time we have all been either witnesses or partakers in petty bickering, name calling, blaming, meaness or may have felt belittled or patronized or ridiculed here on this website. We may have said things that at the time reflected our understanding and since then things may have changed. We may be struggling so much in our own lives that we can't be objective about another person's point of view. We may be so terribly freightened by our own fears that are coming to the surface that it is easier to look at someone else and point fingers. We may be so confused by views being expressed because it is causing us to question every belief we have ever held to be true. We may have come here looking for answers only to find more questions. We may have come here looking for support and been told to take responsibility. Whatever the case it is a time in the creation of mankind that we are being forced to look at ourselves and what we are creating.

This website has been a sanctuary for so many of us here. I have been here on and off for about a year and half. We have seen some really great times and some really really really shit times. I have said things here in the past that I am not proud of. I have said hurtful, mean, thoughtless things, I have accused people. The person that I treated worse than anyone else is now my boyfriend, my partner. He forgave me and was there for me when no one else was. I was completely alone in the world, lost a spiritual and emotional disaster on the verge of losing everything including my kids. He showed me how to take responsibility for what I was creating and choose a better life for myself. I was frozen with fear of what that would mean. I wanted a better life but I wanted everything to stay the same too. I wanted my kids, my car, my job, my mom and dad. As he held my hand as I ranted and raged from the fear, one by one my fears started to fade. I left my job, I pulled my kids out of daycare and became a full time mom, I gave up my car, shifted the relationship I had with my family, faced the wrath of my ex and moved to another country. I am living a life much different now. One of lightness, ease, freedom, laughter, joy. I don't worry about anything anymore. I don't have a job. No money to my name. And very little fear. All I do have is trust (faith) in God and the universe that this is it. I am still healing so things are still coming up. I am not perfect that is why I am here. If anyone here was ascended they wouldn't be here. Literally.

And that brings me to my point. Absolutely nothing that I now have would have been possible without this website. This beautiful rainbow of people. We are all so perfectly different. It amazes me how everything is cyclical. Exactly this time last year I was embroiled in a huge drama thinking that I was the bees knees. I felt I had all the answers and one day people would just wake up and understand. My biggest rival is now my closest companion. I judged him so harshly. I even said he didn't have a soul. Now I see he is one of the most loving compassionate forgiving souls on earth.

It is part of our 3d nature to judge others because we are afraid of what they are reflecting back to us. Everyone is a mirror. This beautiful website is a gift to each of us. So many of us have nowhere else to go to for friendship, advise, support or a swift kick in the ass. Sometimes it is the swift kick that gets us shifted. Sometimes it is a shoulder. Though in my personal experience I never shifted from a sulk by someone sympathizing.

So as these have been a rough few days, weeks, months and the future though long term looks fabulous the immediate future is looking a little rough. I would like to offer a suggestion, request, thought, perspective. How about those of us that are healers send healing to the website? It is a sort of entity with its own energy. We collectively can raise its vibration. Those that aren't necessarily healers still have so much you could do... meditate on the website, or pray for the website, or think positive thoughts whatever it is that you do to raise your vibration or to get into a good state give it a go for the website.

May I suggest that when we are sending energy to the earth (if that is what you do) send it here as well. Maybe instead of thinking about how you are going to overthrow ruling powers that be, think of how you can contribute to empowering those here in love and light. We are in a time of instant manifestations. "Ask and you shall receive" If we come here looking for trouble sure as hell we will find it and we don't have to look too far either. If we come here in gratitude for what this site represents we can change this place. If we can change this place we can change our lives. If we can change our lives we can change the world. I think that that is a change we would all love to see. Sooner rather than later.

Having said all of this I still hold the belief to be true that all is in perfect divine order as my life has constantly reminded me. There is no reward with out risk. Risk often comes with fear. As we face and release our fears we move steadily into a life of freedom, peace, joy and ease. My prayer is that each of us take personal responsibility for what we are creating here. That we each do our part to heal the website so that it will continue to be a sanctuary, a place for growth, freedom, joy and ease. May we all take personal responsibility for our ascension by looking at what we feel and why we are feeling it. May we all look at our fears and release all that is holding us back. May we all look to the future and see how close it all is and that everything that isn't reflective of the life we long to live no longer serves us and is ready to be released. May we all leap off the proverbial cliff and spread our arms to find our wings were there all along.

Thank you to all who have made this site possible. Without you we wouldn't have this wonderful place (a nursery) to practice being the person we are becoming. Much love to all of you...

Yours in Joy
Jenn