Oh my,

So, usually I am 2-3 weeks behind everyone else in the "ascension symptom" category... this time, I think I caught up all in one fell swoop. 2 of my critters have been sick with some type of bacterial diarhea and the local cat who comes up to the porch for feedings has lost about 5 lbs. So, Leo ( my puppy) and I laid on the couch all weekend. Sophie, my oldest dog, woke up last night and got sick all over the house, so needless to say my morning was spent dis-infecting things. I have been down and out since thursday... wishing my own stomach would quit hurting, the knee and shoulder would quit bothering me. I have literally felt like I have been hit by a bus and have the flu all in one sitting. Kind of like the fibro crap.

People that had gone out of my life are back in it. Weird. And to answer someone else's blog, that I was too worn out earlier to respond to, yes, I am thankful for many things... just a bit freaked out by all that is going on and in my own human sort of way, can't stand the not-knowing. It isn't that I don't have faith in all of this, but dammit. I am tired. I am sick of struggling. I have worked long and hard at all of this... plus this week's realizations about the whole mouthwash, pumping of the stomach, not that big of a deal hospital trip kind of freaked me out.

Can I whine a bit more???? LOL. Love you guys. Thanks for listening. Karen