living in the awe

i give great gratitude for the abundance, happiness and freedom i am experiencing.

my apprehension about the future calls me to stand up and grow into a place where i can handle it all: 2 babies, a new business, debt/money management, supporting my partner to grow, remaining centered in all thati do and not getting lost in over-organinzing/analyzing/thinking...

for all my challenges i have infinite blessings to transcend with. miracles is a way of thought, a way of life, a way of being. for all problems there is a miraculous solution. these miracles come fast, with simple alignment and gratitude. i must remember that i am also a child with a mother made of miracles who shines upon me unconditionally, always, in all that i do and am. i am never alone and when i feel stuck she will always give me the exact things i need to not only survive but thrive. i was not raised with this knowledge, i have sought it and learned it, and now it is the ultimate tool for being.

it is not up to me. i am in collaboration with a great, collective spirit, which has an intensity that could leave me paralized with awe if i were to see it in its totality. there are minor worries, minor upsets,minor frustrations, minor annoyances...but they are just based in my own inability to look into the great white sun of creation that offers me all.

i seek to experience a sort of total relaxation, entering the state of awe that beckons me, that actually scares me a little with its intensity. it feels a little like death, and a lot like rebirth.

i am ready now.
i am finished with the smallness of the ego.
let me expand into all that is
let me be back with my great mother
there is no distance between us
i am just here as an extension of you

how beautiful to live in the awe

ninja twilight
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