PROgression or REgression? Living WithOUT Attachment or Living With DEtachment? Your Thoughts Appreciated...

(First of all, can anyone tell me how we "choose up to three" categories? Never works for me...)

So here is my questioney that I hope others have two, three or four cents to share with me...

I am not sure if I am in a "good" place.  A place of finally living without attachment; without attachment to people and outcomes.  Or am I in a "not so good" place of detachment, and don't really realize where I am or what I'm doing.  As I write this my "inner Self" just said, it is the "good" place, and that I am just "not used to it..." but I will continue anyway to see what you think AND if anyone has noticed the same...

"In the Olden Days" I was so on top of my emails, phone calls, posts I posted here, there and anywhere.  Things I order online (have to actually keep a "waiting for log" or I completely forget until it arrives...kind of like Christmas...ha.)  It was a world of worry, of waiting, of feeling not heard like if a phone call, post or email went unanswered.  It was a place of feeling me and my stuff didn't matter if a friend would forget something I shared that maybe was important to me. (Now, sometimes I find myself saying, "I told you that? Oh yeah, that's right.")  Obviosly living life very attached to alot of things/outcomes.

Now, and for many months, I do alot of apologizing for being a "bad emailer."   It's not because I don't enjoy EACH and every email AND have SO much to say back.  It's that if I don't do it RIGHT THEN, I find I have "left that building" pretty much and am onto and into a new one with each rising sun.  I forget what I posted and where (I share my writings on four different sites now) and have to again, keep a log.  I send gifts or letters and forget until I get the thank you call (man I used to be PISSED when that call didn't arrive the INSTANT the gift was received...ha) and if that call never arrives?  I either never remember or remember many months later.  And just think, "Oh wow...that's right...I sent so and so such and such" and I coudn't care less that I never heard a peep.

Now this sounds all fine and dandy and enlightened and ascended right?  So why do I question when it feels soooooooooooooo good to no longer be attached to so many things outside of me????

Because after a year and a half of therapy with the most wonderful therapist...who took me to the deepest and darkest fears and corners I never dared to even peek into...he moved.  When I first met him, since he was an intern I asked if that meant when he had done all his hours that our work was done, to which he said, "No, I am building my practice."  I would not have started with someone who would then leave...or I take that back...I probably would have but I woudn't have gone so deep.  While we were able to wrap things up pretty well before he moved, it was still hard after having a safe place to "dump" weekly.

So THAT is where the question "is it regression" come in.  Have I not really become "lighter" and "speedier" in vibration, but instead have unknowingly become...what's the word...shut off?  Do you think there is an invisible wall that I am not aware of?  I mean I "feel" happy enough...and actually am loving this new "not worried about all that stuff" person...but what I do worry about now?  Is that this new me...who forgets who, what and where...is now in turn, without realizing it or intending to, hurting others who are not so detached to outcome...hmmmmmmm....

I admit, shooting this off to you guys is not easy because I of course want to hear "It's all good" (again, my inner Self just told me it is, not matter what you guys say or even what the answer is...because where ever we are, it is always "all good."  ha...that inner Self sure is "good" huh?)  But I will shoot it off anyway now.  As I am this far in my blabbing, I guess it's not even about "hey am I Okay" anymore, but instead..."Hey...anyone else?"