NOTHING SPECTACULAR TO REPORT

Apart from the UFO sightings and my dog's strange behaviour I've nothing spectacular to blog today. I had blood tests done yesterday, followed that with a good hour's worth of 'overwhelm crying' which cleared a lot of sadness from around my heart area, after which I was absolutely zonked out! So I lolled on the sofa all evening and then went to bed and slept all night - just the odd twinge waking me here and there - but today I feel so much better.

I seem to be being shown by my body that

1) it needs to release unexpressed sadness in the form of water and heaving great, shoulder wracking sobs which come from deep deep down and probably some also from deep in the past too. I can actually feel the sadness moving from various parts of my body where I've held it, shoulders, back, womb, heart.

2) it needs good quality sleep and it can't be allowed to build up any sleep debt like it used to in the past

3) taking care of others - ie, children and elederly parents is taxing on the mind and body, regardless of whether it's done in a spirit of 'love' or 'duty'. It matters not what the spirit of intent is or was, the FACT is - most women just DO IT without thinking of the effects on themselves, and because they're caring for others their body actually OVERRIDES it's own needs while it gets on with the job/s in hand.

This is not meant to go on indefinitely which is why we have the menopause and why histamine levels alter during that period and women become 'allergic' to so many things - including people they may have known and cared for and about for years.

Suddenly the woman wants 'her space - her identity' back and sometimes with a vengeance.

This is not simply the rantings of selfish women, its biological and physiological and at this time also the histamine levels in the body can change so that the woman actually becomes 'allergic' in some way to the very people she's cared for and about for years!

Be gentle with yourselves, listen to your body, it will tell you when you're going beyond the call of duty! And if you don't listen it will MAKE you listen.

When I look back I can see myself 'falling in love' with people, caring for and about them very deeply for as long as needed and then slowly beginning to 'fall out of love' with them and withdrawing my care as they began to care for themselves or move on in some way. At first it felt quite strange to not feel as deeply for someone as I previously had, but now I see it for what it is - the mind, the body and the spirit actually working in synchronicity.

Cheers!