The importance of standing under

Paradoxical, yes very I would say. In everyones soul mission there is divine paradox. Many of the great teachers speak of it and in it, rather fluently.

I would love to think only loving and highest good thoughts. I have spent a couple of years trying to cleanse myself of all negativity, yet I am darkness too, still after 2 years into cleansing. My only answers come in paradoxical disorder. I often times feel like a genuine nut case. However in my deepest, and often darkes realisations, I know there is something much deeper occurring.

I feel it is important to both stand and understand our individual darkness, even to the point where it may make us sick. How else do we sum it up other than to open our soul to the divine paradox of it all, and pray for protection and guidance. At the same time we must trust at a place deep within our soul/selves that we are being guided in the light and in the darkness.