When was the pivotal shift?

I think there may have been several over the years... Aside from the wierd happenings I had as a child of things moving on my shelves in my room, and talking to my animals and being sure that everything, especially my stuffed bear Poo had feelings... then onto the teenage years when I had connections with one friend in particular who I swear we were mentally connected. I always knew when he was thinking about me or when he would show up at my door.

Then later, when I made a wish for several things and they all came to manifest. I think that may have been the last time I wished for anything, as I figured out, sometimes it wasn't what I really wanted and I always got what I wanted. Always. Now, I am ok with not asking unless I am absolutely POSITIVE it is for a good purpose.

Doing the Artists Way was pivitol, it taught me what it was I really wanted and how to say I was sorry to people I hurt, and to forgive those that hurt me, and especially to start forgiving myself. (Although this has taken until the last few months for several of the things I could not forgive myself for) I at least have now come to terms with them.

Learning to listen to myself and believe in myself. It's kind of ironic, but as I think back to all the lessons I have learned, especially about judgement, and I can think back to all the nasty comments people have made to me that have hurt me deeply, (regardless of whether or not I let them know) I do realize that in looking deep into the situation, it really had nothing to do with me at the time at all. I was just there to blame, i.e. reminding that person of something in themselves that maybe didn't seem right. I always look deeply now to see if when I get irritated, why? Sometimes it is because I see myself in others, traits of my own that I truly can't own and love.

Which then brings us around to learning to love all parts of ourselves, changing what is truly not acceptable to us and loving those that irritate us.

None of us will ever be perfect, but we can strive for it... reaching, changing growing, always challenging our beliefs and forgiving ourselves and others for wrong-doings. It is so not worth carrying the anger. There were way too many years of that for me, that and not taking responsibility for my part in every unfortunate situation... you know how it goes, the truth is always somewhere in the middle.

Thanks and Love, Karen