swallow your pride

swallow your pride.

Today I realized that some people will never be happy with themselves. Shockingly, they are somewhat content accepting this. But what they don't realize is that they are going to continue to look for their happiness in all the wrong places. I spent way too many years of my life with this mentality, and consider myself lucky to have broken free from this deluded state.

Some people are willing to make the sacrifice and put forth the effort to find happiness within themselves. Kudos to you. It is painful to swallow your pride and admit to yourself that your attitude and actions have been the cause of your own personal struggle.

I also realized that these people who are unable to face their insecurities head on are lying to themselves. I suppose it's much easier for them to accept defeat than to search within themselves and contemplate the underlying issues responsible for their poor attitude. I think their inability to do this can cause one to harbor so much anger and sadness. So much, in fact, that these emotions will eventually manifest themselves as bitchiness, arrogance, selfishness, and hatred.

Unwilling to admit their own faults, they will take everything they hate about themselves and force that pain upon those who are closest to them. This is incredibly easy to do because it allows them to see other's problems/issues as being worse than their own. And if they are able to do this, in their own mind, they will feel better about themselves. It works... but it is selfish. Bitchy.

I think it's like we've been told all our lives; If you tell yourself the same lies over and over, you will learn to believe these lies. Well, if you continue to do this with every unresolved issue throughout life... you will have convinced yourself that you are perfectly fine the way you are. You will believe every lie that your subconscious could muster. Eventually, your issues become so vast and overbearing that you simply cannot be fixed.

It makes me sad to know there are people out there who have an inability to question every aspect of their lives. This is why pride is a horrible thing. You should take pride in yourself, and in everything and everyone you love in life. But if you have too much, you will never be happy. It will always be there... holding you back from ever falling in love...falling in love with yourself, that is.