Perception is the Key

i always try to remind myself
that each of us,
as human beings,
are all presented with,
seemingly fucked up situations.

those of us who have enough love within
have the opportunity
to gain experience,
to learn about ourselves and others,
and to consciously transcend the negative energy and fear
that holds us back and controls our emotions.

i've been on a rollercoaster since '06.

with each obstacle thrown in my face,
i gradually become excited
about a new opportunity,
a new experience.

one which i know must be endured
if i want to grow as a person
and to further embrace the love and energy
that connects us all.

we must ask ourselves,
"are the things i'm saying or doing stemming from
a place called 'love'?"
have you ever been in a situation where
you know that your actions are irrational,
but nothing can stop you simply because
you would have to admit out loud
that you're wrong?
screw out loud,
you may even be too afraid to allow the knowledge
of your irrationality
to once again cross your mind.

this fear creates negative energy
which spreads outward,
and has an impact on every aspect of life around us.

the ego will turn this fear into anger, jealously, and hate.

this adds fuel to the fire already burning.

if everyone took just half a minute
to stop and ask themselves this one simple question,
we could begin
to perpetuate love instead of negativity.

i know i am here for a purpose.

i've always felt different from everyone else,
in that i've simply always wanted nothing more
than peace and love
surrounding and abounding.

we must agree that this is different from the norm
in today's culture.

i am what you would call an empath.

empathy is my gift.

it took many years of going through these seemingly shitty situations
to learn that
i have a deep connection with other's emotions.

i can feel them.

you may think i'm crazy,
i once did as well.

when i was younger, i couldn't make sense
of the flood of emotions that would hit
at the most random of times.

i mistook these emotions and feelings for my own
and lived many years in depression and anger.

it wasn't until going through many hardships,
that i learned,
little by little, hardship to hardship,
that i have a gift,
and a mission,
and a purpose
in this life and in this form.

it wasn't until even more recently,
that i learned to separate these foreign feelings
from my own.

and that i can't get entangled in the emotions brought on
by feeling those of another.

this can be troublesome and confusing...
i have to be consciously aware
that these emotions being felt aren't the same as my own
and they are not to be taken personally.

i have a long way to go.

because i know in my heart
that if i can feel the emotions of others,
including pain and joy...
then i must be able to send these feelings and emotions out,
not only take them in.

why would it only work one way?
an upstream is always slower than a downstream,
so it would make sense
for that to be the latter development
when it comes to my abilities.

we really do have to just keep on going.

because i feel we are all able to do this!
this isn't some special ability i have...
i think most are so influenced by pop culture and religion,
that they dismiss any similar feelings early on in life.

and their disbelief in the possiblity
of any and all abilities involving the etheric body
keeps their emotions and higherself
at an almost caveman capacity.

no matter how much i complain,
or whine.

i will not give up in any situation.

any obstacle thrown my way
is presented to me as a tool
to further connect with
a higher self.

it is always in my hands
whether or not i see this situation as an opportunity
or another chunk of shit hurled at me
by that sucky thing called life.

(oh, by no fault of my own, of course)

it's always in our hands.

our perception is the key!