Wonderful Aha

Had a Aha moment(s) bit ago. Mixing baking soda, sea salt & french lavender essential oil w/ hot water in a jacuzzi makes a effervescent wonder world!!!... :) But on the more esoteric side.... one of the more prolific books for me lately has been "Meditation and the Mind of Mind". One segment offers the precept that the determination of what one's surroundings should be like before meditating is unimportant. It offers that the intent is where our focus should lie and that thru meditation we will be more aware of what conditions might be more conducive to meditation. What freedom that is when I apply to my whole! Freedom from having to figure it all out. This is the reversal of ego's default setting..... fulfillment (so says the lie) is from the outside in.....find "it" out there and you'll be better in here. Find and apply the right label, join the right group, convince others of the validity of your struggle.
I have these moments when I am at my most attuned, in the flow, in the now....then I have no want, no fear of the future or regret of the past... no loneliness or need of other. Ah, but when I am not in the flow I begin to experience the other ends of those spectrums. Probably the most powerful for me lately is the 'alone'....sometimes it manifests itself in a seeking the romantic. Oh, I've become much more sophisticated in my approaches at this juncture of life than in earlier years. And although I don't see myself indulging in anything different than 'most' others there is always this little tinge of '...I have the cart before the horse'. These two dream scenes joined this PM in my effervescent wonderland and I, again, was awed. The reason why former committed/romance relationships have struggled is that once again I acted upon thoughts that came from beliefs that I am lacking....I'll be 'enough, whole, ok, loved, etc.' once I find the right person, place or thing. Perhaps I shall place the intention of "build it and they will come". Peace
Namaste,
Mark