Really FAT!???????????

Ok, I am actually not just "feeling" fat but have gained 8-10 pounds in the last couple of months!!!

I feel so bloated and...

FAT!

I am wondering, since it all started when...if it was the Chi Nei Tsang (abdominal massages) that I was getting weekly for about three months AND the Chinese herbs she had me on daily?  Well, I am not doing either anymore as of a couple weeks ago, and not because I got so......

FAT!

But because one, it brings up ALOT of emotion and she was a "cold fish" who was great at the actual massage, but was not into then being there for me/her clients when as a friend who goes elsewhere said, "...emotions just start squirting out of you with that deep work."  Then the herbs were for insomnia panic and anxiety, which I no longer have much anymore. She said Chinese herbs are like that.  You take quite a few first, then less, then only if needed.  Haven't needed them.

I remember the first month or so I asked, "Is it normal that my belly feels bigger?  I feel like I've gained weight, and mostly there.  As the tummy relaxes, does it get bigger?"  She said, "Hmmmm...I don't think so...if anything it should be getting smaller..."

NOT!

And now it's not just the belly, but the whole body.  

Ok, if no one else is feeling really

FAT?!