Trying.....

I have been going through this for some time now and I am trying so very hard to allow my husband to be where he his spiritually and for me to continue on my path. HOWEVER, it can be a struggle for me sometimes, because I like to share new experiences and share my knowledge or what I learned....and, well he may not understand or be interested in it. SO I share here with you......but then I am separating myself from him in a way. So the cycle goes around and around. I want to share with him and wish he would at least ask questions. He doesn't have to be interested in it for himself, but for me.....since it is such a huge part of who I am....if he were more interested I would feel like I wouldn't have to "hide" a part of me. Some people say well it doesn't matter if he is interested or not, you do your thing and he does his. I just don't want to live that way. I want us to share our lives our interests...our beliefs and dreams even if they are different. I don't feel that is out of the ordinary. Is it? Sometimes I feel like I am the only person who feels this way. It has gotten so far as to my wanting to leave my marriage, and now we are actually working on healing....situations, SO maybe this too will shift. Anyway............just HAD to share with those who would understand. Thank you for listening. xoxo