what do you think??

hi all i am a little better than i was the other night.but it is night time that is worst for me.i miss oliver terribly but ill have to deal with that which i will.you know i was playing with my little cousin today and he is 1 n half.i felt close to oliver just playing with him.and i thought to myslef are children my life in some way?i mean i have always had a connection with children but i mean i cant see myself teaching children so what exactly is it.i was just sure i would work with young children.i now need to work out what it is.i have this incredible love for choldren.any suggestions?xx