Feelings...

I have found things to be quite difficult lately. Even though I know better. I feel so alone. When people ask me certain things or try to relate..They just think I am weird. I feel very sad and very happy. I feel confused about myself and about life. I have lost most desire in everything because when I see the silliness of most things I just dont understand anymore. I dont even feel human because I cant go and be foolish or get addicted to things. I see right through action and thoughts. I can feel the sadness and fear and greediness in the world..it makes me wonder why? What is my purpose if no one around me understands me at all? What can I do when I understand people around me I dont even know? Its hard for most to take truth. I just dont know anymore...I am living in Chicago..yet I do not feel that I am in the right place. I am not sure where that place is. This man came up to me the other day and told me that I was brilliant..I asked him why. He said my aura was bright golden yellow. He said most where blue or other colors..but I was not. I found it interesting. I do not think I am special or different. A light worker that I used to get readings from also said that in between lives I always hung around angels. I also found it interesting. I have a tendency to change lives around me, sometimes without noticing. People just seem to see the clear picture after being around me for awhile. I find that interesting as well. I would love to have some guidance and opinions if that is not to much to ask. Am I familiar to anyone?

Love to all,
Justin