Public Schools vs Home Schools and Inner Truth

Today I'm going to examine a pull I've been feeling lately.
Public school vs homeschool or alternative schooling.

My son loves school and does well. I am fingind that I don't approve of a lot of the stuff they do and the way they do it though. He doesn't either but thrives on the socialization.

I don't want to keep bringing things up to the school because I seem to be the only one making any noise. I seem to be the only one who sees it from the side of "why is this- this way?" when others seem to be looking at it from "cause it's always been that way" or just not bothering to look at it at all. Just as the rest of society, the real issues -core issues of love, hope, acceptance and tolerance and teaching others to think for themselves, never seem to be addressed. So many programs put into place to 'fix' problems, just like the many medications of the medical system, but none to ever fully address the core issues. No! --That would cause a society of empowered, loving beings! NO! We don't want that! Drug them if they don't sit still! Make them read crappy books with absolutely ludicrous and awful story lines and make them fear and conform!

I don't want to make it hard for him to be there because mom won't ever put a cork in it, so I've tried to find balance between saying things and letting things go. It hurts sometimes though to watch quietly when I do let it go. There are books that are read and things that are taught that I know he is just going to have to un-learn later because they're fear based, control based, and "work work work is all there is" based and so many from our generation are having to work so hard at unlearning it.

Those of us who don't believe in the fear tactics of religion certainly don't send our children to religious schools. So why when we believe in our own inner truths rather than what everyone else tells us to think (media, government, doctors, etc.) do we send them to public school?

Ugghh..! I feel like such a traitor sometimes. I feel like I'm not living my inner truth and what I know is best for my child if I just send him to public school because there doesn't seem to be a suitable alternative.

BUT--Then there's the matter of integrating the children of adults who share my thoughts and would like alternatives into the general populace at school. Do we need to keep them there because they can help the other kids to know that it is important to speak up and speak your truth? Has spirit put them in that place for a reason? Do they have a job to do? Are they wayshowers and to separate them everyone else would do more damage to those they are supposed to be supporting? Would I be taking him out of his purpose if I separated him from those he could be shining his light on?

I'm a big supporter of finding and living your inner truth. I believe this should be something taught at an early age. We cannot go forward in the world if everyone is taught to become mindless drones that must think the way someone tells them to and spit back what they are given. The only way to go ahead in this world is for every one of us to find and live our inner truth. Why can't we start this in childhood?

Homeschooling doesn't seem like the best option for us both for the above reasons, and because it's too isolating.

I can't help feeling the urge more and more to find an alternative though.
There is no Waldorf, charter, or alternative school in my area.

I have pondered starting a facility where homeschoolers can go whose parents work and can't homeschool them, and that want the socialization of school. There is a spiritually based curriculum I have found that would be fabulous. I could have kids of all different grades working on different things at the same time, and I could help them each individually. We could go on class field trips and each could get something age and grade appropriate out of the experience to write on/study.
It would be sort of a designated school time but very open and an option for those who want another option, but don't want to isolate their kids in homeschool or can't be the homeschool teacher themselves for whatever reason.

But alas, I don't know if that's really something I'm supposed to do or not. My psychic hits keep telling me "school" but my heart is soaring the most when I am counseling right now.

Plus, the lesson I am learning right now is supposed to be not 'doing' for awhile, and certainly not trying to save the world with some big 'plan.' :) But there's that little issue of when there does not exist something that I feel is needed, I should create it! Ok, so since I can't do it this time, or at least right now--who's up for the challenge? :)
I need an alternative and I'm not supposed to be the one to create it this time.

I really love counseling. It really is joyful for me.

I have so many feelings on crucading for changes for the children right now though. However, I guess my core thought is that I feel that we can't begin to change things for the kids until we can get to the adults and get them to start looking at how they see themselves and the world.
Looking at things from a new perspective, with new eyes, different from the ones they were told to see with as kids.

Only if the adults see things as different than society presents them will they start demanding this type of school. So I guess I feel it is not for me to start it, but rather to offer guidance to the adults seeking to see their lives from a new perspective. I feel this is my best contribution at this time.

Anyway, sorry for all of the jumbled writing. I'm going to leave it as it is though and not over-edit it.

Just something I needed to get out to the universe today.

Thanks for reading.

Love and light and inner truth always.

Amanda

*Edit* Please let me add to this how greatly I appreciate all the public school teachers who do their best to bring alternative ways of doing things to their classrooms. The way I see it, it is most certainly the 'system' that needs refinement, not necessarily all the individual teachers. Thanks for reminding me Ocean Jasmine.