emelar's blog

there's so much gossip flying around here it reminds me of highschool! so many people pointing fingers, blaming, telling stories that aren't their own. it's very disheartening. and to what end? none. we have all lost. the most significant loss is that of a dearly beloved brother. and why? i don't know, it's none of my business, it's not my story.

so here i am again in virutal world where i am supposedly free from judgment, but i'm not. i don't take it personally either. like i've said before - it's none of my business what you think of me. however, there are so many judgements happening here that it's getting a bit uncomfortable for me. not that i'm feeling judged, but because being judgmental is a form of avoiding our own work.

i've been sensing some discourse here for a while. tension building up between members here. i don't want to upset anyone any further, but i do need to share some of my teachings with you all:

-we can only be responsible for our own words, thoughts and actions

-words only have power to harm us if we give the words power

-we allow people to irritate us, provoke us, and attack us

i have to share this with you all, it's so exciting how fast things are moving for me right now...

been doing major work on myself this summer - time to leave the past behind - and have made great progress!

it's said that every thing comes in threes, three times lucky, i'm sure you're all aware of the cliche in some form or another. so i need to ask what impressions you have about the following 3's in my life:

- i was married 19 years ago today, we haven't been together for 17 years
- met my son's father 7 years ago today
- went on a first date today

i recently spent a week in the wildeness with 11 amazing women and i want to share some of their words of wisdom with you:

"it's none of my business what you think of me"

today is an anniversary for me, i started my life over 2 years ago today. picked up the kids, returned to my home town and escaped a very oppressive relationship! i want to say i i'm a whole new me, but i'm not. i just got me back!

i've come to a point in my life where i can no longer live in the realm of the expected. it's so mundane, it drives me mad when i try to conform. it just isn't me. i don't buy into the north american 'dream', i'll make my own, thank you! so, i guess this means, i'm finally accepting myself for who i am and the gifts i carry!!!!!!

why is it people are so quick to jump to a judgment? i just read a post about it being disappointing to see lightworkers charging for services. well, i'm disappointed with a world that doesn't place much value on my gifts. actually, i'm disgusted. why is it i am expected to provide services for free when you will pay huge fees to doctors?

never thought i'd say it, but it's true!!

By love serve one another.
~ Galatians 5:13 quotes

sadly the essence of this teaching has been lost by the droning masses