VioletBlueBear's blog

I have suddenly realized how easy it is for me to see situations and people acting in those situations. The drama is clear, where people are operating from (fear, loneliness, power, and yes, all the good stuff) is clear.

I found the description of the light and dark matter to be interesting, particularly as the light is 'like a spiderweb'.

Missing matter found in deep space

By Maggie Fox, Health and Science Editor Tue May 20, 3:17 PM ET

Decided to try dating again. Met two men via an online dating service. It was seriously awful as I was coming from this 'new' place and they weren't. It was also a marvelous lesson in how much I've changed. They were playing the 'old' games, the dance, the posturing while I was coming from complete honesty.

Heightened senses, amazing the last couple of days. My dreams are rapid, streaming through visions of people I don't know consciously--- I feel like I'm seeing myself in alternative timelines. Music sounds amazing, food tastes amazing, I'm amazed at this myriad of small things that make up my life. This isn't like me (pity, eh?) as usually a good dose of cynical humor keeps me in line.

I'm trying to find the right resource for an employee at my company. She is 70 years old and still needs to work as her pension isn't enough to support her. We can't offer her enough hours and I told her I would try to help and find some resources regarding getting another job or other financial help.

Wanted some opinions on these strange (but good) times folks. I and my sister-in-law both dream we murdered someone long ago, and were about to be exposed, with blood appearing in different places, seeping up and investigators hovering around us. Since we both had this dream on different nights and hadn't told anyone, I find it rather interesting considering the whole Pluto in Capricorn thing.

I've shared this in PMs with a few of you, thought I'd write it out for Mass Consumption and see what your reactions are.

I was lying down doing simple breathing to calm myself: in breath of love, out breath of negativity--- and staring at the blank wall while doing so. The first time the wall suddenly was covered with thin yellow (not gold) lines. Like the patterns on old porcelain or a haphazard spiderweb. I stayed with it for awhile, then got up. I came back about half an hour later to see what would happen, and this time the wall went from the original effect to great pulsing yellow sheets of of light. A small grey circle appeared, then out of the came the pulse of yellow light, like a wave panel. Hard to describe. Nothing like this has ever happened before, I was not on any drugs either! I didn't have much feeling about what was happening, there was no emotion attached, no sense empowerment, it sort of seemed ordinary! It just was.